Moses: Called to Confront the Past
Today we looked at the story of Moses – not as liberator of Israel, mouth piece of God, or guide to the promised land – but the person Moses. The boy who was born of two worlds and belonged to neither. Hebrew by birth but Egyptian by privilege, Moses grew up with an identity crisis that likely ate at him daily (“now what are the whispering about me behind my back?”) and unable to answer the question, “Who am I?” Moses identity crisis takes hold of him as he witnesses his internal battle in the form of guard whipping slave and he strikes out and kills. Learning the next day that violence begets violence Moses chooses flight instead.
The calling of Moses from that wilderness hideout is as much about the saving and healing of Moses heart as it is about the saving and liberating of Israel (after all God could have worked through anyone). God calls Moses to confront his past, to stop hiding and reconcile himself with who he is. We are called (like Moses) to the hard work of healing, forgiveness, and reconciliation because until we can make peace in our own hearts we can make no peace in the world, we cannot be “as God” to one another.
What is your wilderness? What are you hiding from or keeping buried in your heart? Moses internal struggles made him a “less than person” a person who “wasn’t good enough” for what he was called to do. His past held back his future. God desires us to stop hiding from ourselves and to know that we are capable of far more than we imagine, nothing less than being “as God” to another as long as we are willing to do the hard internal work of letting our own hearts be healed and made whole. We can too walk the journey of Moses and confront turmoil of our past and learn to let it go.
This Lent how is God calling you to confront your past that you might help to forge a better future?